kehidupan. . (life)

ada masanya kite buta,
dan ada masanya kite nampak. .
hidup ini adalah sebuah mainan,
yang tidak perlu kita serahkan. .

when the 1st time i waz born,
everything waz perfect but 1 thng. .
i cant rmmbr a sgl thng. .
till. . i waz abt 4 yrs old. .
i rmmbr abt i falling
at 168 staircase n bleed. .
n even a snake n lizard
crawling arnd the fans. .
no wonder baby alwayz cry. .
thy wil saw a wierd creatures
arnd them. . i swear that i saw
nenek kebayan, anaconda, lizards,
pontianak n alot more when i waz
toddler. . thtz the reason im crying. .
it may sound weird, but itz true. .



erm. . lookz doesnt matter. .
whats matter iz heart. .
but dun get me wrong. .
rmmbr tiz, dun judge e book by itz cover. .
some gd lookin person mayb good,
n some othr ppl mayb bad ones. .
so, dont trust others 100%. .
hey! when i was in primary sch. .
i am bad looking, i looked in a mirror
n tel myself, i wont b good lookin as
my bro. . i waz damn nerd back then. .



i told cya. . erm. . but year after year. .
i've changed. . sec 1. .



im not tht good looking enuff. .
but yet, i stead wie 1 pretty gerl. .
syafiqah. . she luv me thru heart. .
but at laz, she betrayed me. . so i
stead wie her younger sys, atiqah. .
so i mixed wie a lot of bad guys. .
n thy influenced me. . i've smoke,
riot, assault, fight, bully, stealing,
(police case), lying, scold vulgarities at
my own dad, sleep in claz, argue wie
teachers n alot more. . when im sec 3,
ive changed. . i told myself to b a better
person. .



i had succeed quiting smoking. . n i was
proud of tht. . but the main thng. .
i cant stop fighting. . i never lost 1 on 1 match. .
but when im sec 4, i got my 1st chinese girlfrens. .
to b honest, i love her but when i saw her bestie,
i started to fall in love wie her. . she changed my
life man. . but when i stead wie my gerl bestie,
n i nit to bweak up wie my chinese gerl. .
day aftr day, i noticed, she played tymer. .
i was damn hurt, i do regret breakin wie my
chinese ex bcoz i feel her lov towards me was true. .
so i bweak wie bby star n try to get back my chinese
gerl, but then i failed, so i std wie hariati n then
nadrah nasuha. . but yeah. . i get bby star back. .
i will still wait. . if she hurt my feeling again. .
i will leave her for good. . i swear. .



in my secondary lyf, i realized tht. . everyones
hates me. . evryones backstabbed me n their
reasons r. . jealousy. . what a crap. . so, aftr
my graduation night. . i told myself again. .
ite lyf iz differnt than kidergarten, primary school
n even secondary school. .



when im ite, i mixed wie alots of ppl. .
but usually wie nerds la. . i can mixed wie
mat rep thy all, but i decide not to. .
everything changed. . nothing will remain the
same. . so, whts my future wil b?
i cant rily predict but i juz nit to
continue living n go through my problems. .